All I Have to Give Sunday, Feb 27 2011 

Hi Readers,

“I’m not always strong, and sometimes I’m even wrong, but I win when I choose, and I can’t stand to lose, but I can’t always be, the rock that you see…”– Shania Twain “The Woman in Me”

Everyone is insecure about something… and sometimes it is the most bizarre thing to be worried about. And other times… no matter how crazy or insignificant the insecurity might seem, it is always at the back of your mind–an irritating scritch-scratch.

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

My biggest insecurity is not being enough. Not being enough to myself, to others… not being enough emotionally, psychologically, physically. Everyone I know says that I always seem to “have it all together.” Long story short, not being enough on any level keeps me on edge all the time, so I am constantly hyper-aware of anything I say or do. That being said, any other insecurity I might have branches out from feeling like I might not be enough–whether that means abandonment, rejection, failures… it all stems from that feeling. Here’s to hoping you never feel this way~

❤ Nolaleigh

On My Own Friday, Feb 25 2011 

Hi Readers,

It is a four-day weekend–unofficially. School has been cancelled since yesterday. Time to catch up on homework and post a blog or two. Actually, you may very well get a book review shortly. I won’t tell you what though. So, to the point of this particular entry…

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

I’m going to college and living off campus with four roommates. This is our Christmas card that went out to family and friends. People say that high school will be the best four years of your life, I say they could not be more wrong. College will be the best four years that I’m able to immediately foresee. I’ve met amazing friends and made some new ones–I’ve a better direction of where I want to go in my life, and the tools to help get me there. Since last May, I’ve been living away from my family and with my roommates. Obviously, not living with my family means I am responsible for more than I used to be.

My life has changes drastically since I moved out of my mum’s place completely. Continuing college is so rewarding. I’m having fun and I am learning to live and breathe every moment.

I hope all is well with you and that you’re able to find something that has positively impacted your life.

❤ Nolaleigh

Inspiring Miracles Monday, Feb 21 2011 

You showed me faith is not blind,
I don’t need wings to help me fly,
Miracles happen once in a while…
–Myra “Miracles Happen”

Hi Readers,

I wonder what goes on inside that boy’s head…

That boy is my brother, Robert.

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.

On March 28, 1995, Robert came into this world. He was the most adorable baby boy I had ever seen; except for the crying and screaming. As he got older, the crying and screaming did not end, and no one knew why Robert was not talking. We soon found out that Robert had Autism. Autism is a psychiatric disorder of childhood characterized by marked deficits in communication and social interaction, preoccupation with fantasy, language impairment, and abnormal behavior, such as repetitive acts and excessive attachment to certain objects.

Robert and I have not always been close because I did not fully understand Autism or my brother. I do not know if I ever will… but he inspires me every day. No matter how difficult life has been, he lives and breathes every day. He loves people no matter the consequences. He does all these simply because he can. Robert is a moment in time when everything is as close to perfect as possible. You could turn him purple, and make him walk backwards—I would still believe that. One could say he is a dream come true for I cannot imagine my life without him. I will not even try to explain to you the journeys I have been on with my brother. They are ongoing and deep like his laughter. Everything is just better with him in the world. Everyone always seems to immediately love him because his presence brings the peace, happiness, and joys that every person in the world should experience every day. His teachers and his friends’ parents say he is a wonderful child and that he is so many things. They will never begin to see the AMAZING being he is and all that he has taught and given me. It’s been fifteen years and he is still a light that is guiding me through hard times, and I know now that he saved me. My Guardian.

Is all well with you, my readers? I hope you have someone in your life who inspires you the way my little brother inspires me.

If you’d like to learn a little bit more about autism, please click here. Have a wonderful day.

❤ Nolaleigh

Unwritten Friday, Feb 18 2011 

Staring at the blank page before you,
Open up the dirty window,
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find…
–Natasha Bedingfield

Hi Readers,

How are you? I don’t think I’ve ever asked you that… my apologies. Well, I hope you are doing wonderfully. Today’s post is something that I’m none too subtle about. Hope you enjoy…

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.

I want  to write and publish a collection of creative nonfiction pieces about my life… possibly in the hopes I can share my story and help others who might be in a similar boat. I want to write, and it may seem incredibly narcissistic… but the lessons I am learning and the choices I am making are going to lead me to the place I need and want to be one day. I have no idea where I’ll be tomorrow, next week, next month, next year… but I know that I’ve been offered blank pages and I’m taking advantage of them.

Pick up your pen, not a pencil–that way you can’t erase. Find a piece of paper. Write exactly what you feel in this moment. Breathe it in–I’m learning how to not be afraid of that. You might hate your words at first, but you will grow to love your story. 🙂

❤ Nolaleigh

Mama, I Love You Monday, Feb 14 2011 

Hi Readers,

It is Valentine’s Day, of all days. So, Happy Valentine’s Day…

And enough on THAT note! Today’s post is a special shout-out to my one and only…

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.

Mama. This post is about someone you could not imagine your life without; I can’t use people twice which really bites. Anyway…

Mama,

If you’re reading this, I want you to know that I love you. Even when I am so angry with you that I’m left speechless, I love you, lol. I can’t imagine you not being here… not hearing your voice, or hearing your laugh. We grew up together in a way, and I just can’t begin to fathom you not having ever been a part of my life. You know me better than most and  a good deal of the time, know  when something is bothering me or making me happy. Not living with you is weird sometimes because you’re not in the kitchen with the stereo, waiting for me to help make dinner. Or maybe just having a lazy day, blasting the music, just singing and dancing… I dunno… I just know this: I might not always like the choices you make, but I want you in my life for as long as I can have you there. You mean the world to me. I love you.

To all my readers, I hope that your day is wonderful–whether you’re in a relationship or not–I hope it is wonderful. Hold on to the one good thing about today and just breathe it in.

❤ Nolaleigh

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