“You’ve no room to call her names or treat her the way you do–you’re  as much of a liar and a cheat as the rest of the world. You don’t shit gold bars, and anyone who truly knows you–knows it… we’re all done listening to your broken promises, never being good enough, and being made to feel like no one will ever love us because we are not how you think we should be. You might be right, no one might ever love me the way I want them to–but I would rather be alone and happy, than be surrounded by things of monetary value and an old man who always treated people like they were not worth his time… look at yourself in the mirror. You will not like what you see. Stop pointing your fingers at everyone else, and actually look at yourself–take responsibility for all the bull shit and lies you have put her through. I’m sick of seeing her try to jump through these fiery hoops and perpetually get burned. You’ll either fix your issues, or you won’t. She deserves better and you know it.”
Day 11: A picture of something you hate.

Hi Readers,

I guess we are going to delve into one of my touchy subjects today. This particular subject is closer to me than I would like, and that being said, I’m not quite sure what I will write versus what I refuse to. I wrote the above passage to a man that probably did not enjoy reading it. He has an abusive personality and that is it. I did not like how he was treating the people I care about, so I finally said something.

If I am going to be honest, I might as well tell you that domestic violence is one of the big things in my life; an unfortunate, consistent cycle, that needs to be ended… will be ended. Abusive relationships involving my family have… more or less made me not want to be in a relationship. I shouldn’t say that I don’t want to be in one… I’m terrified of being in a romantic relationship because I can’t trust people enough to not hurt me.  I know that getting out of an abusive relationship, is like going to rehab– you really have to want to rediscover the part of you that you lost in the battle…

I guess my final message is this… to women and men: If the person you love has physically, emotionally, and psychologically hurt you… I want you to know that you are worth more than you will ever know. Despite what they say and do, I hope that one day, whether it be today, tomorrow, or next year, you are able to stand up and find yourself again. I hope that you are able to find the strength to realize you can make it on your own, and you don’t have to live in fear–believing that you are worthless and wondering what you did wrong. It might be how it is–that does not mean it is right and should be that way. Domestic violence is wrong and there is  a way out.

❤ Nolaleigh

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